seventhe: Sev plays FFIII. (Oh. Okay.) (Refia: oh. okay.)
The Pen Is Mightier (2422 words) by seventhe, Vrazdova
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Final Fantasy III
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Author Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Arc/Alus Restor
Characters: Arc (Final Fantasy III), Alus Restor, Refia (Final Fantasy III)
Additional Tags: Epistolary, Crack Treated Seriously, Sexting Via Mognet, Ostentatious Erotic Love Letters, Aged Up Till It's Not Creepy, Pen15 Club, talkinboutmypenis
Summary:

Arc and Alus exchange letters wherein they attempt to discover the purpose of a mysterious gift from Refia. Things escalate quickly.

seventhe: (Rydia: calls the monsters)
Turns out I've got a herniated disc in my neck. My C5-C6 has been janked out of alignment with the rest of my spine. Because it's herniated/bulged, it's pinching the nerves around it, which accounts for the pain radiating out of the spot (into my neck/back/shoulders).

I'm oddly--- relieved? about the whole thing. It's not that a herniated C5-C6 is great - it's not - especially when you're 30 and arthritic it's really not - but it's an actual diagnosis. Based on data, rather than "I think it's this" or "from the way you describe the pain, this" (who knows if I'm saying the right things?). Based on data. I'm a research engineer to the core.

I actually don't have a lot more information than that. I've been referred to a neurosurgeon who will take a look at the MRI and give me some more detail (my GP basically said the neuro could give me far more understanding of what was going on than he could) (also, of course, there's some kind of weirdness in the MRI (can anything about me ever be normal please), because the report said "herniated disc versus a bulged disc", which will need to be clarified with a neurosurgeon specifically). After that I'll have more details and the beginnings of a path forward.

Also I fucking passed out in the doctor's office because I don't know why. This has already kind of been an emotionally stressful week (month) (year) due to some assorted 'other stuff' and maybe I'm just more worked up about my body than I realized? Or just general stress/relief/shock...? I don't even fucking know. I felt totally fine. Then I was standing at the check out station waiting for my referral and I started to feel all flushed and skitty, started to feel that awful head rush coming on like I do when I black out (this has, unfortunately, happened enough that I'm 'used to it' and can recognize the signs); so I said to the nurse, I need to sit down like right now and she gave me her chair and I sort of made my way into it (had blacked out at this point but fumbled my way over there with some help) and apparently just passed out in her chair? Came up a couple [moments?] later, and of course when you KO in the doctor's office, holy shit. They took me over to another room to lie down and I had a blood sugar test and an EKG and a bunch of other shit and they gave me a lollipop and eventually pronounced I was fine (I kept saying, this happens enough that I'm pretty sure I'm okay, and the looks the nurses gave me like, uh, what? were awful and hilarious).

I don't even fucking know; I took the rest of the day off too and sulked in bed and accidentally a 2 hour nap with Marzy to ward off the splitting headaches I usually get when I pass out.

I. D. E. F. K.

So yeah, that's that. It's really gross right now in my head -- usually I do a ton of research on medical stuff (when I am on a prescription I always look it up in detail, even if it's a fucking antibiotic) but I can't even bring myself to read a lot of the stuff about herniated discs because I'm just like, ew, oh god that's in my neck. I swear I feel it more - like, it hurts more - now that I know what it is, which is great. Vicodin already doesn't really work; just what I need, more body weirdness. I'm so fucking depressed I'm at the point where it's easy to pretend I'm not depressed because I don't have any feelings right now, I'm a big blank empty sack, so it's pretty easy to fill it up with fake "I'm okay"s. askdja;lsdk;alskd;alsk;;;;;;;;;

So we'll go from there. The doctor said I don't have to limit any of my activity - he basically said, "The damage is already done; activity is up to your discretion; if it doesn't hurt, and you feel okay, you can do it" - so maybe I can just move forward here.
seventhe: (FFEX: Doink!)
So I'm going to spend November posting more, probably in lieu of NaNoWriMo, because I just wrote over 7300 words in one day and basically that has proven (to me, anyway) that I'm an awesome writer enough that I don't feel like I need to do NaNo. Also I think I'm going to have two exams. SOOO eff that. I'll see, but posting daily in November is a much better backup plan.

I've seen a lot of 30-day memes going around the Circle/FList - there's one on video games, one on "tell me about yourself", one on religious beliefs, and another kind of random one, just off the top of my head - and I like all of them but wouldn't be able to choose one.

So, because I am dumb, I think I'll have more fun turning it over to you crazy people.

So here's the game:

  1. I've got a list from 1-30 here, for the 30 days in November I'll be blogging.

  2. Leave a comment with a topic you'd like to see me cover. Anything is fair game, and I mean it: things you don't know about me. Fandom opinions. My real feelings on X/Z. Rants on grad school. Talking about my job. Makeup Batman's beauty tips. My thoughts on religion. Pretty much anything that's a fair blog topic - just make sure it's something I can do something with.

  3. I'll update the list as people come up with stuff, in the order it's commented. There'll be one master list; comments on DW and LJ both count. Anybody can comment - use OpenID on my DW, or do it anonymously.

  4. Since I'm actually not arrogant enough to think 30 people will comment with great ideas (despite what you may think...!), yeah, you can definitely leave more than one suggestion. Just do me a favor and space them out a bit - wait until somebody else comments, so that I'm not doing Drakon for seven days in a row? letting someone monopolize the blog.

  5. The list will stay up until it's full.

  6. Come 01 November, I'll start with the first topic and then move on through. If I miss a day (like for Thanksgiving maybe) I'll post two the next. The end!


30 Days Of Posting )

EDIT: This meme is now full, but feel free to comment anyway -- I am enjoying this and if I have time I'm willing to keep it going!

*waits to regret this*
seventhe: (Squall: dammit)
OH FUCKING HELL I FORGOT THE WORST PART ABOUT SHUTDOWN WEEK. THE PART WHERE BECAUSE THERE IS NO STEAM IN OUR FUCKING BUILDING WE DON'T HAVE ANY FUCKING HEAT. AND WITHOUT ANY FUCKING HEAT THE AIR CIRCULATION SYSTEM JUST BELCHES COLD FUCKING AIR BECAUSE NO ONE CAN TURN IT OFF OR DOWN BECAUSE I AM SURROUNDED BY FUCKING ROBOTARD COCKFACES. AND MY OFFICE IS IN A LAB, AND GOD FUCKING FORBID WE CARE ABOUT THE LABS BECAUSE ONLY HOBOS SIT IN THERE.

MY OFFICE IS 57 DEGREES, GUYS. 57 FUCKING DEGREES.

AND IT'S GETTING COLDER!

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT. SERIOUSLY. NO, SERIOUSLY. I WILL NOT DEAL WITH THIS BULLSHIT TODAY. I AM GOING THE FUCK HOME.

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