Fuck, i’m Not Dead, fuck, hi, fuck

[seventhe]

So I’ve been trying to get! My! Shit! Together! and it’s going about as well as you might think.

I’m functionally broke until 01 May, so I’ve spent a lot of time looking for online word jobs. Got two in my pocket; neither one is sustainable long-term, but any cash is good right now. Still working on commissions, even though it doesn’t look like it; I’m constantly writing these days while trying to avoid The Burnout.

Had the realization the other day that I took this break not so I could flail around doing piecemeal writing on the internet, but so that I could actually recover and get my house back and lose weight and stuff. So I’m trying to stick chunks of that work into the schedule as well. (I swear I’m going to try to swim today! Where by try i mean “try to make myself go to the pool”; i never forget how to swim.) That’s hard too, since then it takes up time where my brain is like you should be writing but. Hey. W h a t e v e r.

I’ve been having fun, though, too. Crown Royal and I have been hiking every weekend; we did a bit over 4 miles this weekend, and my asthma hates hills, but it was nice. Did a drinking-night rewatch of Winter Soldier last night with a handful of friends from my accidental MCU Discord, which was freaking hilarious. Lots of capslock, ranting, and swooning. It isn’t all stress.

Sometimes i wonder how i can be such a fuckin waste of space all the time lol

Comments

[pict]

I miss you! (I deleted Line off my phone and computer almost a year ago due to Reasons which I realize is a terrible way to stay in contact. But I do exist. Still. Hi.)



If writing is your main source of income right now, maybe treat it like a job with job hours? As in, after seven hours or nine or whatever, you’re done for the day.

[seventhe]

I ALSO STILL EXIST. GOOD ON US FOR EXISTING

writing is a SHIT way to make a living bc the inspiration comes and goes And some days I’m like GRAB IT WHILE ITS HERE and others I just want to hide in a blanket

[pict]

EXISTING IS HARD



ah well then I’m all out of suggestions

Other than
Drink lots
Invest in Prosecco nail polish

[seventhe]

"drink lots" appears to be my solution to everything

nothing has changed in the last ten years of my life

[sarasa_cat]

I know that feeling of having to force myself to remember that taking an actual break for the sake of my personal needs -- health, home, etc. -- is important, and that work can wait or be demoted or made to fit into small time blocks.

I. Know. This. Feeling.

._____.

[seventhe]

why is balance so hard i'm like at least 35% a whole ass grown up like did everybody else get a manual or something

[lassarina]

if they did the handout missed me and I fuckin want one