i am finally coming back to the real world

No, I haven't been doing very well. and when you're an immensely qualified person struggling to find even basic work because your resume is confusing and the world is a shitshow, it's pretty hard to feel like you're worth fuckall.

I've never been good at keeping in touch with people and the pandemic has pretty much made me a hermit anyway.

All that to say I've finally landed a writing position with a contracting company and will be doing work very similar to my previous government contract, which I loved. I've finally cleared the background check and start formal employment with them 10/02.

you can tell my life has gone to shit. my house is a disaster that needs some real tough love. i haven't slept in my own bed since before our florida trip because it's still covered in clothes and shit, and it's been too hot for me to get work done on the 2nd floor (my meds make me overly heat sensitive). i'm struggling to get from week to week, i have no health insurance, my unemployment is fucked up, my credit card debt is obscene, and AH still has no job -- it's really been A Time.

but i survived, and sometimes that's the gold star you get.

if things could just settle and stabilize for a bit. that would be nice. i'd like to come back to the real world.