the trick is to keep breathing

so i had a new idea for a novel that has grabbed on to me and i'm about to dive into -- which is good, because it has been a struggle to come up with things i want to write lately. i've been so long out of fandom that, while i can still write interesting bits and pieces about characters, i've lost the drive to tell really big stories about any of it. i don't think it's lost forever, of course, because i still have a lot to say about things, but there's no real internal push to say this or that specifically. it's more about taking prompts, and things like that.

likewise, all of the original fiction ideas that i have are... stalled? or? ok, so. like, with my Ausrine verse, I am so engaged in that story that like, whatever I write needs to be perfect and awesome and I need to work out a lot of details about plot, and character drives, and etc etc. Likewise Beacon is just too important to fuck around with; it's really complete in terms of plot and all, and it just needs to be written, but. It's complicated?

Maybe that's it; a lot of the universes my head has produced are quite complicated; almost intimidating with it, really. And I love love love them and that's the way they are, the way they need to live, but like ---

sometimes i read snippets of things in the sort of mashed-up urban fantasy scifi whatever genre and i think, i could easily do that; i could easily make that story. and that's what i want: something easy to play around with, something that i am into but not as devoted to - something to write for funzies, just a "normal" ass novel i would hope would be interesting to generic market without being something i've dumped heart and soul into and therefore fear. ???

i realize this sounds incredibly weird because who wants to write something they're not as invested in? but i need something that creates words, something fun, something easy to start with before I start trying to explain lesbian werewolves in space and how much i adore Morgan DeLumens?

anyway this has been a weird post! the point is, i had this new idea for a story and I'm going to run with it. it's gonna play out as a 'basic' urban fantasy mystery drama story; in my head it feels like mixing Robin McKinley's Sunshine and Chalice with the Kate Daniels / Mercy Thompson / Jane Yellowrock business, with a hint of Locke Lamora type setting and a whole lot of plantlore. my heroine is a young woman with the ability to scry into the past; if given some sort of talisman belonging to someone, she can often hone in on a specific part of their past, which is a good part of how she makes a living. She lives in this tight-knit community in a sort of grey place between the rich elites and a bunch of crazies, and together they discover some suspicious shit and things proceed from there.

and i would kind of like to write it with minimal outlining and for funzies and see where it goes

aren't you glad i shared this wonderfully interesting information with you. someone shoot me