seventhe: (MAC Batman)
Trying to set up a plan to help get back into writing. the struggle! if i don't plan, i'm unlikely to do it (right now, anyway - once i have a story going i'm usually more motivated to dump words into it), so i need to start out with something structured.

the schedule i was working with before the wedding crashed into my life gave me 4 days to play with: MTWR. FSS I have Mike, which doesn't necessarily stop me from writing / art / playing games / etc, but since i only get Husband 3/7 nights of the week, i usually prioritize doing something with him over something i can do alone*. anything creative i might get done in that time slot is a bonus, really.

i was working towards a schedule where M was for grocery (shopping or delivery) and meal prep, T and R were swim days, and W was a free day for errands or fun time. into that format i worked out FFXIV with rina (usually W) and other various chores.

i also did make a pledge to GYWO/2018, which was to write 10 days/month. i'm an utter failure at this so far for obvious reasons, but i can catch up in May if i can structure myself. as of now there are like 4 weeks left in may (3.5 ish) so 2-3 times a week and i'm golden. this implies 2 writing days / week and then 1 writing period pulled out of the weekend as the most likely approach.

but then ugh, like: do i expect to have the energy to write after the grocery store (which is one of the absolute most overwhelming things to my personal fibro fog), or after a swim?? the details are endless and of course mentally i can let anything be a roadblock if i want it to be.

writing is hard

(edit) and then what the fuck do i actually WRITE???????



*note that this isn't exactly a sustainable setup - mostly because we tend to spend most of our time together relaxing and just hanging out which means we get nothing done on weekends which, by nature of my disability, are a big portion of the little productive time i manage to get. we're getting used to it. as our needs change, that will change.

seventhe: (Laguna: wayward son)

Future posts i want to make:
- the house dynamics of a cat family
- Hello Fresh and StitchFix
- January
- my job suddenly going from 0 to 600mph
- marriage, finances, and future
- the 5 mobile games i am addicted to
- my management blog
- nothing political because it’s all a trash fire and it makes me very angry
- new lady music that i really like
- swimming and water!
- new video games!

Brief updates:
- I am alive.
- I still need to review January to see just how badly I flunked all my goals. I’m sucking at writing and art, but I have been doing more gaming than usual, and I really picked up my knitting pace (two pieces complete!). I had a lot of fun cooking and packing lunch more often, I didn’t work out regularly but did work out, and we hit most of the wedding goals we needed to.
- I have two cats on the couch with me right now.
- I went to the pool today :3 swam my usual for right now: ~23 min, ~1100 yards. 40 lengths of the pool. I will get back to that mile soon.
- what the hell else do i do with my life
- shota box.
- why am i not doing chores right now.

The end.

[EDIT] ok i remembered the funny story i wanted to post in the first place, which isn’t even funny and probably only Drak and Cendri will find it funny at all. The main 6-lane pool was full so I had to swim in one of the three lanes attached to the more public water park parts of the facility. I was up against the wall and the thing was that the bottom of the pool was so fucking dirty, it was super gross, like some weird shit on the bottom that was probably harmless but looked like fucking worms or something. There was this like, clump of hair and every time I swam past it I choked on vomit and it also gained some life from my ~wake~. So what did I do? Instead of barfing like I wanted and/or bailing on the swim, I decided that Reno wouldn’t have any of that, no trashing the trash, man. So instead I named it “Cloud” and decided that it was a particularly enthusiastic dust bunny that lived in Rude and Reno’s apartment, under Reno’s bed, which is the one place Rude refuses to sweep for him, and it bothers Rude a ton that it’s there so Reno decided to name it (“after our favorite guy on the planet!”) and sometimes will have conversations with it, usually ones that discuss Rude’s shortcomings. And Rude refuses to admit that it exists, except that Reno starts finding “Cloud” in random places in the apartment, like his sock drawer, or in his favorite plant, and Rude still won’t acknowledge that it exists at all and Reno’s like what the fuck Rude I literally found it in my briefcase Cloud doesn’t move on its own and Rude’s just ... ... and Reno won’t shut up about it and anyway that’s how I survived 40 fucking laps swimming over a hairball

seventhe: (Snorlax: fuckin owns)

so i had a new idea for a novel that has grabbed on to me and i'm about to dive into -- which is good, because it has been a struggle to come up with things i want to write lately. i've been so long out of fandom that, while i can still write interesting bits and pieces about characters, i've lost the drive to tell really big stories about any of it. i don't think it's lost forever, of course, because i still have a lot to say about things, but there's no real internal push to say this or that specifically. it's more about taking prompts, and things like that.

likewise, all of the original fiction ideas that i have are... stalled? or? ok, so. like, with my Ausrine verse, I am so engaged in that story that like, whatever I write needs to be perfect and awesome and I need to work out a lot of details about plot, and character drives, and etc etc. Likewise Beacon is just too important to fuck around with; it's really complete in terms of plot and all, and it just needs to be written, but. It's complicated?

Maybe that's it; a lot of the universes my head has produced are quite complicated; almost intimidating with it, really. And I love love love them and that's the way they are, the way they need to live, but like ---

sometimes i read snippets of things in the sort of mashed-up urban fantasy scifi whatever genre and i think, i could easily do that; i could easily make that story. and that's what i want: something easy to play around with, something that i am into but not as devoted to - something to write for funzies, just a "normal" ass novel i would hope would be interesting to generic market without being something i've dumped heart and soul into and therefore fear. ???

i realize this sounds incredibly weird because who wants to write something they're not as invested in? but i need something that creates words, something fun, something easy to start with before I start trying to explain lesbian werewolves in space and how much i adore Morgan DeLumens?

anyway this has been a weird post! the point is, i had this new idea for a story and I'm going to run with it. it's gonna play out as a 'basic' urban fantasy mystery drama story; in my head it feels like mixing Robin McKinley's Sunshine and Chalice with the Kate Daniels / Mercy Thompson / Jane Yellowrock business, with a hint of Locke Lamora type setting and a whole lot of plantlore. my heroine is a young woman with the ability to scry into the past; if given some sort of talisman belonging to someone, she can often hone in on a specific part of their past, which is a good part of how she makes a living. She lives in this tight-knit community in a sort of grey place between the rich elites and a bunch of crazies, and together they discover some suspicious shit and things proceed from there.

and i would kind of like to write it with minimal outlining and for funzies and see where it goes

aren't you glad i shared this wonderfully interesting information with you. someone shoot me

seventhe: (SAZH)

well, it's 11 January; I've mourned 2017; I've tentatively dipped a few toes into the water of 2018; and I have a plan.

I've set some goals for myself: I have some that will be goals for the year, but with all of the shit going on right now, I've decided to run my life like I ran the pilot plant: quarterly goals, evaluation, and adjustment of said goals, with monthly check-ins.

I had a great set of plans for January, but then we decided to get fucking married and now I really need to reevaluate larger goals in that light. The wedding is 14 April, which means that - even though we are going for the most informal wedding ever - we still need to get information out to people who need to travel as soon as possible.

As I am a nerd who loves symbolism, I have decided that the theme of this year is 5H: Home, Health, Hobbies, Habits, and [some H word that really means Vocation] (i haven't picked the last one so I am open to suggestions):
- Home means the continuation of reclaiming my house from the Black Hole disaster, and working towards floor replacement, kitchen remodel, new bedroom set, basement setup, and porch renovation.
- Health means continuing work to get control of my fibro, eat better and drink less, add exercise back into my routine, and lose weight.
- Hobbies means creating spaces in my time where I can pursue my creative (and noncreative) hobbies: writing, doodling, knitting, gaming, anything else I decide to pursue; it means giving them priority space in my schedule.
- Habits means consistency. I need to build it. It means finding what works. My word for 2018 will probably be sustainability because that's the core of what I need to figure out.
- Vocation (or whatever word) means finding satisfaction in my work; figuring out what it is about this kind of work that I love doing, figuring out if this new position can become something fulfilling or if it is, after 13 years, time to move on from this company.

So let's have a minute or two and talk about what I want to establish the beginning of this year, and some of the yearly goals overall...


and i'm good at being uncomfortable )

As for resolutions, those seem bigger and broader, so after reflection those need to be in a different post. One thing I can say is that I am devoting these first three months of work in the honor of:

  • Emma Swan
  • Avatar Korra
  • Carrie Fisher / General Princess Leia

yes, i'm an old, but may these badasses guide me through the beginning of this year.

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