2012: WHAT HAPPEN
Apr. 30th, 2012 12:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
seventheI love the fact that this is officially the last week of my twenties and I haven't done a single thing about that because I've been too busy and tired to even acknowledge the last few months of my twenties and hey, too late now, right? I literally spent all morning today at work organizing my desk - because I haven't had time to do anything other than "throw paper in folder and pray is correct folder" and that method is slowly but surely backfiring all over my face - and writing my to-do list. The fact that my work to-do list is currently a four-page document with six different sections and tons of bullet points in something that started out as color-coding two weeks ago? The fact that there is so much on it and so many things about it constantly changing that I literally have to take actually significant amounts of time on Mondays to properly arrange it, prioritize everything, communicate those priorities to a dozen people, make sure they're okay, coordinate changes, make a weekly plan of attack?
UGH
This is not what turning 30 was supposed to be like .__.
I had a lot of things I was going to do with this year, including finishing my fucking degree/thesis, among other things of various levels of importance. Instead I've spent all of 2012 so far doing the following:
I really just do not believe that it's already May tomorrow. I really honestly fucking don't. I have no idea what happened to this year but I would like so much of it back. I need to take control of all of this soon -- which is basically impossible since my job came with 400 new responsibilities and -0.1 new authority -- but if work really wants me to finish this degree they are going to have to stop making me work late, making me come in on Fridays, sending me to the plant, and also stop working me so hard that I sleep all weekend from exhaustion.
...is it sad that my "dream 30th birthday" vacation is me alone in a cabin somewhere with a couple bottles of wine where I could sleep and write and then sleep more and then write more? God.
UGH
This is not what turning 30 was supposed to be like .__.
I had a lot of things I was going to do with this year, including finishing my fucking degree/thesis, among other things of various levels of importance. Instead I've spent all of 2012 so far doing the following:
- Losing lots of time, energy, and fucks to my job
- Spending more time, energy, and fucks being supportive to other people
- Coming home and using my last remaining fuck to make dinner and a drink
I really just do not believe that it's already May tomorrow. I really honestly fucking don't. I have no idea what happened to this year but I would like so much of it back. I need to take control of all of this soon -- which is basically impossible since my job came with 400 new responsibilities and -0.1 new authority -- but if work really wants me to finish this degree they are going to have to stop making me work late, making me come in on Fridays, sending me to the plant, and also stop working me so hard that I sleep all weekend from exhaustion.
...is it sad that my "dream 30th birthday" vacation is me alone in a cabin somewhere with a couple bottles of wine where I could sleep and write and then sleep more and then write more? God.
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Date: 2012-04-30 05:33 pm (UTC)WHERE TIME MAGICALLY SLOWS DOWN, ALL THE WRITING GETS DONE, COOL SHIT HAPPENS, AND ALL CAN DRINK WITH IMPUNITY
*hugs*
b/c it seems like you might need this today
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Date: 2012-05-01 12:28 am (UTC)For real, hope you have fun this weekend. ^_^
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Date: 2012-05-03 03:03 am (UTC)seriously though this needs to stop :/ Wishing you good luck in addressing the work issues at the very least.
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Date: 2012-05-03 06:25 am (UTC)Keep drinking, writing and being awesome. Oh, and don't ever grow up.. .growing up sucks and is for conservative people with no sense of fucking fun!!! Stay forever young in your heart. And get really, really drunk for your birthday!!! *hugs*