confusing

[seventhe]

It is probably a side effect of the drugs, the stress, or the combination of both, but for the last few weeks I've been living in a state where my dreams contain very real things to the point where I wake up and go about my day and find myself unable to remember or differentiate which things I dreamed and which actually happened.

It's stuff that rides the edge of real and possible: the costume-armor I put on to become a dragon, probably not; the confession that a semi-distant online friend had a crush on me, though: real or dream? Conversations at work, communication exchanges. These days, I dream in email, in text messages, in tumblr and phone calls.

It's a very strange feeling to be struck by a recollection or a deja-vu only to then be sidelined by the question of whether or not what I'm remembering is a dream-image or a real-one.

Comments

[pict]

I think all your online friends have crushes on you, though. ;D

NO BUT, I know how that is. It's weird and disorienting and annoying. Eventually you get better at putting your dreams aside. I tend to find my periods of vivid dreaming last only for bouts of two to three weeks, although I always dream in communication format these days (most notably e-mails about school things). Here's hoping it improves for you soon!

[sathari]

Oh, man, been there, done that, should get overtime for all the extra hours I put in in my sleep, dammit, lol.

[whitemage]

OH MAN, MY EPIC CRUSH ON YOU HAS BEEN FOUND OUT!

AWK
WARD

No, but really, I know those feels. And, yeah, you can sort through the dragon armor okay, but then I "remind" my husband of conversations we've had sometimes, or texts he's sent me and he gives me the 'girl u crazy' stare and is like "Noooooo, I never said that."

And he's not a gaslighting abusive jerkhole, just... my brain has blurred reality again.

I hope you can work past this, because it's the worst feeling.

[novel_machinist]

I have heard of the same thing. It may sound crazy, but you can try keeping a notebook by the bed. When you wake up, write what you remember dreaming about or even just feelings. When you go to bed, summarize what happened in the day, etc.