everyone was right

[seventhe]

Turns out a break really was exactly what I needed.

It sure wasn't long enough; 3 days off work does not cure four months two years of incredible ongoing stress with no break at all. But it does help. Small recovery is better than no recovery.

I actually did not do a whole lot of the things that were on my list. I spent a lot of time with my brain just - off. I slept a lot - a lot. I wasted a lot of time. I re-read books.

It was oddly refreshing.

I'm not going to pretend I'm anywhere near "OK". I realize that I'm struggling here. But it was good to take some time to put a little pause into everything, to spend some time focused on me / focused on my home / focused on doing absolutely fuck nothing.

Comments

[thenicochan]

I'm real glad to hear that. Hopefully you can take an actual vacation soon? (Even if it's a "stay-cation") With how much it seems you work I would hope you're able to build up a little PTO, if that's something your job has.

[novel_machinist]

I'm glad you took some time. I know that it's hard to take time off or away in your position. I hope you can schedule another long weekend soon.

IT IS OKAY TO NOT BE PRODUCTIVE ON YOUR TIME OFF

[lassarina]

it's OK for your time off to be time off, bb. I'm glad it was good for you.

ilu ♥