i am finally coming back to the real world

[seventhe]

No, I haven't been doing very well. and when you're an immensely qualified person struggling to find even basic work because your resume is confusing and the world is a shitshow, it's pretty hard to feel like you're worth fuckall.

I've never been good at keeping in touch with people and the pandemic has pretty much made me a hermit anyway.

All that to say I've finally landed a writing position with a contracting company and will be doing work very similar to my previous government contract, which I loved. I've finally cleared the background check and start formal employment with them 10/02.

you can tell my life has gone to shit. my house is a disaster that needs some real tough love. i haven't slept in my own bed since before our florida trip because it's still covered in clothes and shit, and it's been too hot for me to get work done on the 2nd floor (my meds make me overly heat sensitive). i'm struggling to get from week to week, i have no health insurance, my unemployment is fucked up, my credit card debt is obscene, and AH still has no job -- it's really been A Time.

but i survived, and sometimes that's the gold star you get.

if things could just settle and stabilize for a bit. that would be nice. i'd like to come back to the real world.

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I should really get an OpenID account or something shouldn't I

[(Anonymous)]

Hey sev! It's me, Enkida. I hunted down your dreamwidth journal because I baleeted my Livejournal AGES AGO after it got sold to Russian Overlords and was spamming me with foreign porn ads every time I tried to log in. You think I'd be welcoming of porn ads BUT NO, I APPARENTLY AM A RESPONSIBLE ADULT NOW, GODDAMN.

Anyway, just catching up with you because I accidentally re-read "HNTDB" (an accident, truly, I lost a completely unplanned day doing this) and then found our plot notes and decided I'd finish it off as one of those bucket list things.

I'm sorry to hear that things haven't been going well for you, though I hope by now, nearly 3 months later, it's gotten better. Well, I'm probably like the definition of a weird stalker stranger to you by now, but if you want to touch base... uhh... I think I have a mastadon account somewhere?! (man life online has gotten so hard ever since social media exploded) ... I definitely have a discord account I use regularly, in any case. Let me know if you want to catch up :)

Also, let me know if you want to have a say in how I mess with our horny blond fanfic babies and friends. XD It always was a fun time writing with you, and it brings to mind better times. Life's been a big OOF over here too and it ain't looking to change, so I'm just grabbing what little scraps of joy I can in the meantime and passing them along for the ... like... 2-3 people who might still care. :P

Take care of yourself, y'hear!

also: I am apparently really smurt

[(Anonymous)]

contact information, it's good right... My discord username is the same as my online handle and my little-used mastadon account is here, because the one german server I found that somewhat matched my interests sounded like a fart and that brought me joy:

https://gametoots.de/@enkida