seventhe | well. (covid post) (Reply)

context note 1: i have avoided having covid until today.
context note 2: i made plans in february to visit a friend in canada for my birthday weekend this year to watch some fun tv (JJ) and then go to a fibre festival and spend copious amounts of money on yarn
context note 3: MH (basement housemate) came home from a dog show monday and tested positive for covid on tuesday. other than 5-10 mins on monday when we were unaware we have been on separate floors of the house.

story: i discussed with friend and we came up a with a game plan that seemed fair and would keep everyone safe. tested thursday: negative. awesome! woke up today (fri) with no symptoms. packed the car up and got on the road.

a bit in, started coughing. felt a bit like bronchitis, or an asthma response. took my inhaler; didn't help much but, y'know, asthma can suck. whatever.

bit later, got the chills. that's unusual. i am never cold. but at that point i was mentally psyching myself out: this is covid, i'm thinking. i'm going to bring it to canada and that sucks. meanwhile the rest of my brain is going: you feel fine you're just overthinking a psychosomatic bullshit thing because you're nervous. cause after 4 years of avoiding a lot of in-person friend activity, you get a bit obsessed.

huh, i think. the Sevparents happen to live on the way to Canada Friend. i'll just pull off the highway, covid test, show my brain this is dumb, and go on.

nope. within 30 seconds that line was red and while i waited the full time, it didn't change.

the irony of making decisions to avoid a lot of in-person activities, except for a few people and a few safe places, only to get covid for the first time on my birthday while in the car driving to what should have been an awesome outdoor birthday celebration, meaning that i can't go to the one silly thing i've been looking forward to in order to get through all the bullshit from the last post in my life. it is not lost on me.

but whatever, i guess. i'll roll with it. i just eagerly await the one thing that might want to go right this year.