brain: why

[seventhe]

Dear Self,

If you could seriously stop being so ridiculously cranky and irritable, find some fucking energy in those pills you're taking, and maybe quit daydreaming of being an antisocial hermit hobo for the rest of your life, this would all be a little easier.

Love,
Self

PS: The bipolar manic/depressive bit at work isn't helping, either.

Comments

Re: Oh look, another legit comment!

[first-seventhe.livejournal.com]

*sorry my mistake... LARSA WAS TOPPING

Re: Oh look, another legit comment!

[lassarina]

DOES THIS EXIST IN TEXT FORM

ANYWHERE

PLEASE TELL ME IT DOES

HNNNNNNNGH

(today's adventure was Fang topping the shit out of Lightning and Vanille simultaneously)

Re: Oh look, another legit comment!

[first-seventhe.livejournal.com]

I STARTED IT BUT I DON'T THINK I FINISHED

MAYBE WITH PROPER ENCOURAGEMENT I CAN DO SO

Re: Oh look, another legit comment!

[lassarina]

DO I BRIBE YOU WITH BOOZE, SEX, OR PORN

Re: Oh look, another legit comment!

[first-seventhe.livejournal.com]

ANY AND ALL? HEY MAYBE THIS IS SOMETHING WE CAN WORK ON OVER A VIDEO CHAT

Re: Oh look, another legit comment!

[notraffic.livejournal.com]

I seriously just cackled like a dirty, dirty old man hobo on the subway looking at Playboy.

I do the same shit. Um, whether I'm bored or not. I basically just write porn in my head all the time. No joke. I'm like, walking to the mother-effing cafeteria in the morning to get coffee, and for real, this is what passes through my head: "Man. It'd be really hot if Reno was leaning over Rufus naked while Tseng unbuttoned his shirt. Shirt unbuttoning from behind is really hot."

I then wrote 5,000 words or some ridic shit when I got home.

Listen. Porn can happen anywhere, ANY TIME. And I regularly consider that..."Gee, if my coworkers...or uh, anyone...knew what the fuck I was thinking...I WOULD BE ARRESTED AND FIRED." Oh gosh, they have NO IDEA.

Re: Oh look, another legit comment!

[first-seventhe.livejournal.com]

SHIRT UNBUTTONING

SORRY, THAT WAS MY BRAIN

if my coworkers knew the things that I have thought AND OCCASIONALLY, WHEN I HAVE NO RESTRAINT AND NOTHING ELSE TO DO, WRITTEN while at work, my ass would be IN JAIL.

It's that bad.

Re: Oh look, another legit comment!

[notraffic.livejournal.com]

I hear you. I've handwritten some awful shit.

Sometimes, it's so bad, I just like...shove it in an envelope and forget I did it. LIKE A CRIME.

...And then I take it out again and am like, "If I posted this, um...would I just be de-friended BY EVERYONE?"

And the answer is: PROBABLY.

Re: Oh look, another legit comment!

[notraffic.livejournal.com]

*When I say "awful," I mean tried under an obscenity statute and sent to prison for writing about ... unfortunate scenarios. Oops.

Re: Oh look, another legit comment!

[first-seventhe.livejournal.com]

I have these NOTES. In my Blackberry. That just say ridiculous things like "Larsa/Gabranth on the desk Larsa tops" as if I am supposed to suddenly summon 5000 words from THAT once I am no longer on a work computer? MY BRAIN, IT'S PRETTY HELPFUL.

Also, I actually think I have a "mass defriending" tag somewhere from when I started writing dubcon. OH WELL.

Re: Oh look, another legit comment!

[deadcellredux.livejournal.com]

OH HEY JUMPING IN AGAIN Larsa/Gabranth getting bent over a desk... UH. THIS NEEDS TO EXIST (actually I'm sure it does and I just haven't found it yet).

Your Blackberry sounds like my iPhone... the notes on there are filled with ridiculous fanfic porn ideas. I agree with all that's been said here-- daydreaming about porn at work, um, YEAH. And I've handwritten terrible things at work. And.. and.. yeah. All of the above.

DON'T TELL HR LOLZ